Stories, skills, and positivity- to anxiety sufferers from anxiety sufferers.
My name is Michelle and I have suffered from anxiety issues for about 5 years now. All of this started during my third year of university. I was still living in residence as a Residence Assistant (RA). I was so excited to be working in residence again, working with some good friends and meeting my new students who I would be with for the next 8 months.
Every morning, you wake up, and you’re lying in bed. Before you can even blink your mind begins racing a thousand miles a minute. Naturally you begin filing through every thought, concern, worry, negative emotion, and memory, over and over again. You try to breathe but instead you choke. It’s as if you’re drowning, yet you’re above the shore.
When I was 13 years old I tried to kill myself, I remember standing in front of my favourite Zach Hanson poster; uttering my ‘suicide note’ to him as our little secret with a knife pressed up to my neck. Surrounded by ‘normal teenage girl’ stuff – posters of Hanson clinging to every blank wall space, a CD collection with Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls and other teeny-bopper bands lining my shelves – I tried to end my life.
The older I get, the more I am beginning to realize exactly how complicated and hard to understand the brain is, my own brain being no exception...
Katie McLean holds a Bachelor of Arts in Psychology, and bases her anxiety aid in personal experience, as well as techniques that have been passed on to her by counsellors, friends, and fellow anxiety sufferers.