Stories, skills, and positivity- to anxiety sufferers from anxiety sufferers.
As far back as I can remember I've always been a social butterfly. I was always talking with someone, going somewhere with my friends, and even my jobs were based on being around lots of people. So to suddenly be crippled with anxiety, depression with bouts of agoraphobia, I was pretty shocked to see my whole life just fall apart right in front of me.
In the winter of 2012, my family got the news that we were granted immigration to Canada after more than 8 years of waiting. Incidentally, I was to graduate high school the same year, and would have to start researching post-secondary schools in Canada.
It all started when I was seven. The shakes, the feeling that I would never be normal again, the feelings of panic for no valid reason all started abruptly when I was merely seven years old. The worst feeling of all though, was one that I don't even recall experiencing. It still brings my mother to tears whenever she talks about it but I still have only a vague recollection of the feeling. It was the feeling that, at only seven years old, that I wanted to die. Maybe I blocked out the fact that I felt this way, I don't know, but what I do know is that my family still tells me to this day I would say all too often, "I would rather die than feel like this all the time."
“I don’t know what living a balanced life feels like. When I am sad, I don’t cry, I pour. When I am happy, I don’t smile, I beam. When I am angry, I don’t yell, I burn. The good thing about feeling in extremes is when I love I give them wings.” - Rupi Kaur
Katie McLean holds a Bachelor of Arts in Psychology, and bases her anxiety aid in personal experience, as well as techniques that have been passed on to her by counsellors, friends, and fellow anxiety sufferers.