 Deep down, I think I’ve always known that I’m not exactly what they call neurotypical. But it took me a while to understand the meaning of my anxious thoughts and feelings and how they were affecting my behaviour, and moreover my entire life. I still remember the sick sense of relief that washed over me when I first discovered the term generalized anxiety disorder. All at once it was, “great, now I have a disorder I didn’t know about,” and, “thank god this is a real thing.”
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 The longest relationship I have in my life, aside from my parents and my little brother, is with my anxiety.
For a long time, I didn't think that I had a story worth telling. I've spent most of my life being told that I am melodramatic (which, in fairness, isn't always wrong) and that I over-react strongly to just about everything. I've been told I'm just too sensitive. I've been told to cheer up, because somebody else in my life inevitably "had it worse". I learned very fast that my thoughts and feelings weren't important, and that I didn't matter. This is the story of how I learned otherwise.  January 3rd, 2011 was like any other day. Nothing too eventful happened, but I remember cleaning out my closet with a friend and having a family dinner. I really wish I would have known what was about to happen because I would have seized the crap out of that day.
 If there is one thing that I have learned during my fight against depression and anxiety, it is that there are things in life that will always outweigh the negative and help guide you through the tunnel.. There will always be things that can help rationalize, and contemplate, even when times are dark. I was raised in a family of six children, with a verbally abusive and a manipulative genius of a father who was also an alcoholic, and a mother who tried her best but was so beaten down emotionally and mentally that she was of little emotional support to her children. Growing up, there were fun times, and there were bad times.
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Katie McLean holds a Bachelor of Arts in Psychology, and bases her anxiety aid in personal experience, as well as techniques that have been passed on to her by counsellors, friends, and fellow anxiety sufferers. CategoriesArchives
October 2018
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