Stories, skills, and positivity- to anxiety sufferers from anxiety sufferers.
By: Tanya Elliott
Ugh. Double ugh. Triple ugh. I. Just. Can't. I look at the mounds of laundry and dusty ceiling fans and poop filled diapers and dirty dishes and grubby hands and bills and budgets and kindergarten registration papers...
I feel overwhelmed.
I promised myself that today I would match my body weight in ounces of water consumed. I have consumed 2 XL coffees (Damn you Facebook article that I read at 3am when I couldn't sleep!)
I promised myself to cut carbs to lose 50 pounds in 7 days (because those results are clearly realistic!?!) as I stuff my child's left over toast crust down my gullet as I run out the door.
Every day, chores are there, kids are there, the mess is there...and anxiety is there.
I can't help but feel, that on this hamster wheel of life--life as a mom, full time teacher, wife, sister, daughter, friend...what more can I possibly do?
Those moments when I am misunderstood, when my best intentions are thrown in my face and I feel completely and utterly at the mercy of others--what more can I do?
Well. There is always more. But the difference is that sometimes the "more" can be...needs to be...just for me.
I can breathe. I can take a bath. I can listen to my anti-anxiety play list (yes I have one of those). I can talk to the people that make me feel really good. I can ignore the ones that don't for a couple days. I can delete the FB app. I can take my meds. I can eat a healthy meal. Or have that piece of cake unapologetically. I can rest. I can exercise. I can just be.
The point is mamas, sometimes you are going to feel like an anxiety ridden basket case. People are going to treat you like shit because *news flash* people are jerks. But the good news is...you can broaden your shoulders and give that extra space to...you.
I am a really, really, good mom. And friend. And woman. I love myself and I owe it to myself and every single person I allow in my circle to broaden my shoulders and slice a big piece of kindness pie for myself, and so do you ❤️
Katie McLean holds a Bachelor of Arts in Psychology, and bases her anxiety aid in personal experience, as well as techniques that have been passed on to her by counsellors, friends, and fellow anxiety sufferers.